Hardest Thing..

This morning, when i am driving to my practical hospital.this crossed my mind..
that, all of us..has mission, has something to look forward too, and decision to make..i am not talking about simple decision, but life changing decision..like..how to subsidies the fuel..(i know, i know..its the government that should think that), how to stop a relationship even if you know the feeling is not there and you could not see the future..but, making that decision, saying it out aloud..its like..hard. so hard. coz there are so many obstacles and created enough chaos, when you said it..til at that time, you dont want to make any decision and just hope for things to go on its own..
but its not going to..right..
nothing going too..
the longer its is on hold..the more problem will come and more decision need to be made..e
specially when all your moves need to be told and been watched like a hawk and there is no turning back from that.
sometimes, i wonder..will this ever change...will i ever get the chance to do what i wanted instead doing what other people wanted me to be..and to do.
till, then..
nway, today..my day was great..a patient hit on me..damn, thats was funny..but i dismissed him without "drop his water face"..heheh...nway, he must be married..he is 34 years old..for god sake...;)