OT...

I went to OT (Operation Theather) with En. Azlan (the in charge radiographer of the day for II), and in the room, he let me to screen the patient..Well, it was an experienced to me..i am so thrill and scared at the same time.
I mean, for a first time, I have to learn not to 'shot' the surgeon's hands or even, anyone else that didnt wear are lead gown..anyway, this is me, outside the room, on the way to changing room..and in front of OT 9, im in OT 8..btw..just segan lah amik situ..

What is the different between the Muslim and non-Muslim in Malaysia?

To tell the truth, now, i find the malay Muslims have become as bad, or might say, as worst and ignorence about their own religion, the Islam. For me, we have become just like the Europe, during i forget which century (will checked this fact) where the relgions has been separated from the daily life , the social network.
This already happen in Malaysia, i am not saying that Muslim in Malaysia, are the worst ever..but we are becoming one of them.
I am scared of what might happen in the future. The judgement day will surely come, but before that, there is the 'Hari Kiamat'. For now, i myself, need to be become a good person.so am i a selfish person, if i want to improve myself first, but ignored the people around me, of what they are doing...? or should i play my part?
but in this community nowadays, whatever the person are doing, is none of the person business. So, tell me how do you i behave in this kind of community?
sometimes, when this demoralization of the Muslim, are getting worst..i myself, am afraid to get married. For i dont know what might happen to my children.
Maybe if abstinence the option, then so be it...by God's will.
But, who knows, i might change my mind...after all, i am not in love with anyone, and there is no urgency to get married...and for any of the reasons that people get married for.

Judgement...

We live in a world...or a community where, the a small size person, will get the sympathy the world can offer...
the people that are manje, and looks like fragile..will also get the sympathy..coz they look fragile, even when they are the bad ones...
the people, that looks strong, tough in the inside..are the one that people will not treat them well, and sometimes, this people need the same amount of love from others as well.

Backstabber...

Latest experience i had..ended a relationship..a non-healthy relationship and discover that my 5 years best friends are actually are backstabbers...wonder how i can live with that?
and sometimes, all happen for a reason, just this one, i could not see it yet.

Practical

...I am doing my practical now, in government hospitals in pahang now. And this is what i can say about those who worked in the hospital..
That looks plays a great role in...entertaining the patient, but what boiled me off, was that looks, those that have pretty faces, tend to be hypocrite. The are only nice and look nice when they treating the patients and their colleagues, but not the students. The languages that they used are kasar...and it really irritates me, when they think looks can buy it all. I mean, c'mon you have to be nice to everyone. Just like a blog i read,the nurses especially, are only nice when good looking doctors are on their radar, or when they have good looking doctors. But when these two factors end, these will all gone. they can be a crazy devil and sometimes a b***h.
And i try to reason it all up, and i can come up with this; the one who choose to works in the hospital, are very tired and actually have to be a hypocrite from the start. We learn int when we are students (seriously).
As a student, we tend to be hypocrite to the radiographer ( i am a radiographer to be)..coz they dont exactly like us rite..(some lah)..so have to be hypocrite...and also..oh yeah..just to them.
But for the people, that actually worked there, they have to be positive in emotions to all people, the patients, their colleagues, the practical students, the doctors, the other people in the department and ect. And when they have a mood swing or some sort, they will be cranky and snappy to the patients and especially to the students lah..and just so nice-nice to the others..especially to their friends and good looking doctors and patients...
This is life...and i hate someone that have a damn pretty faces..but treat others like crap...
and for me, working with the old, matured people, we can learn more than with people like my age, or in the same era as me, coz they end up judges more,critic more, but appreciate less...except they love you and adored you...and forever they will adore you.
so suck up kan...

Latest trend in love...in life

What i figured now was...money buys all. And that what makes things hurt in the end. That retard the thinking development and what makes people suffered in the end.
What i found of the love style nowadays;
it doesnt matter if a man, is a player or the woman is a player, the concept is you got money. And sometimes, i wonder, why people can put up with many bad awful things that their partner does, and the answer will simply be, money. well, love may be part of it also, but money sure is play more important part than that.
What define someone as player?when they are in love with more than one person at one time? or when they had been in many relationships, just because they wanted to find the right one, not because they want to play their partners heart's? or when just want to gain something from a relationship? Tell me please.
This one thing, on love life is something that i could not understand till now. And i want to understand it. Sometimes, the saying that a girl can only love one person at a time, is wrong now. A girl can love more than one person at a time,and to tell you the truth, i more than impress with that ( but i dont think i can do that).
And there is also, someone that can love someone completely ...and i think, nowadays to find love, that much reflect the elder generation, is hard. There is divorce, freedom in speech, freedom in thinking.
And i found out that, the younger people tends to marry coz of love and when it fades away, things will get harder.
Well, i have learn few things in life and love. in my recent relationship. That we just need someone that we can have a connection somehow, and an interest that will ensure those things will spark us in the end later on. That family is important and that support from the loved ones is important as well. Then we can survived all the chaotic events later on. That i need love..i mean, the one, that is love.

Top family movies...

This is the family movies on my choice...over the years..

1) Con Air ( well i actually cried when i watched this movie, coz it shows the love between the husband to the wife, and especially the father to the daughter)\
2) Meet the Robinson ( Family thing again..family completes me)
3) Speed Racer ( Family completes me again)
4) The Last Samurai ( The love between, hm..this one hard to explain..the woman practically have to save the man (tom cruise) even though he killed her husband)
5) Dragon Heart ( I cried also, coz its painful the dragon had to kill himself, even he is the last one standing (dragon) just because his heart had been part of the devil prince.
6) Independence Day ( I just in love with this movie..the inspired speech by mr president, the love for the nation)

more to come soon