A food for thought...

I had a conversation with a friend of mine; and he told me this..
"A man that supposed to be lead by his brain (mind),
A woman supposed to lead by her emotions,
but..
when a man was lead by his emotions, thats mean either he anak manja or x rase susah in life til he did not grow up..
and when a women was lead by her mind, thats mean she had many experiences and kesusahan in life that make her be that way."

So, where i am?...
I am lead by both. I am rational, and sensible..but i am emotional lead also.
I am not totally menjadi lelaki, or hati amat keras, coz sometimes my emotions took over and i am a woman at that moment.

Just in balance, is what i am.
Nway, this blog may be on hold for a while, til my exam is over.

Mingle, Socialising....loser and winner?

Today, my social calender, went up..i urm, not used to it. so i miss my books more and reading more. Its been days since i read. i MISS that.
What i can deduced from that, is...mingle and socializing is great..and both tiring, but it can open up the mind, sharpen the perspectives and (only when they know how to utilize it)...make connection (this is common)...but somehow, we tend to make mistakes when we speak..and those are nt great..and eating too much also, not great..coz socializing = eating rite?..:)
nway, i have be such a loser, called by a good friend of mine..yesterday. I went to MV alone, eat lunch alone..well, thats not a loser act..coz i think its alrite..plus, i can observe people..and just observe them..and i bought thing based on my judgment alone, well..turns out..it is good..says few person..so i know now..that i can trust my judgment...:)
nway, it becomes a loser, coz..i watch movie alone also..(well, before this, its ok..i mean, the seat was away from no one, so i am watching it alone..)..but this time, both seats next to me was occupied...on my left side, was group of boys chilling together...and on my right side, a couple spending time together..and i am stuck in between those two boys...
hahaha..you are rite at the end of the day izuan, I AM A LOSER!!..
:)..but am i?
is spending time alone, make me a loser?
u think?

Kingdom of stress vs. kingdom of boredom...

This is the final week in this sem before the revision week (next week) and examination week (week after that)...in most public university.
so, there has been two situation. one, the students that get too stressed finishing off the assignments, the presentations, the works, and tests..and they hope for the revision week for the time they want to relax before study again.
and well, there is another group, the one in the boredom..which is me:)...(but the fact that this post should be posted early this week), make me already busy now. i am occupied with the research project, that my mind took longer time to process things. this is really make me headache. Everyday, there is to do list that i could not cancel, things to read on, concentrate on..and think on..devise is another aspect also.
so, practically, now my holiday is over and i have to start doing my research seriously and race against time. coz ideas strike in and limited time already to do everything.
so, in the end, i will be busy, but i will always jump in to give opinions on things.
take care people.

What Is Lacking....

Sometimes in this semester; for the past couple of months...i had a need, a thing that is lacked in my mouth (life)..and i have been in hunt searching for that.

I want something to eat, food specifically that make me, when i taste it...feel good. So good and..its just not a stomach food, but also food for the soul and heart.

I have eaten mostly, all food that i can think off, that have been the one i indulge when i am 'down'; but seems now, those food brings no effect to me.

so what is the kind of food that can make me 'whole'?..anyone who have any ideas, please tell me.

and i also have this one bad habit lately...i criticize on food. well, sometimes out loud, sometimes just a food for thought. I used to be the one bot criticizing food, but now i am..wonder why.

have to live with that i guess.

guess, before i hit 23, i realized what is happening with me, what is wrong with me, how to improve and how i have changed.

Before i hit 23, i am being someone else, and somehow, maybe...
those that had happened before, happen for a reason.

And maybe this is it.

opinion-block..

I have not been thinking much and when i read a book, i just read it, and not criticizing or thinking on behalf of my own opinion. Therefore, i cannot make think of new opinion, that i strongly agree.
The consequences of this:
1) i could not generate and think for my research paper..i am stuck while i know i can do it
2) when i read the challenge; i just read, without understand what Tun meant in directly and what he wants us to think.
3) I end up not doing anything and sleep...and i dream. I know then, thats because my mind was not tired and im not utilisizing my thinking enough these days

Wonder what makes me that way....

What is the different between the Muslim and non-Muslim in Malaysia?

To tell the truth, now, i find the malay Muslims have become as bad, or might say, as worst and ignorence about their own religion, the Islam. For me, we have become just like the Europe, during i forget which century (will checked this fact) where the relgions has been separated from the daily life , the social network.
This already happen in Malaysia, i am not saying that Muslim in Malaysia, are the worst ever..but we are becoming one of them.
I am scared of what might happen in the future. The judgement day will surely come, but before that, there is the 'Hari Kiamat'. For now, i myself, need to be become a good person.so am i a selfish person, if i want to improve myself first, but ignored the people around me, of what they are doing...? or should i play my part?
but in this community nowadays, whatever the person are doing, is none of the person business. So, tell me how do you i behave in this kind of community?
sometimes, when this demoralization of the Muslim, are getting worst..i myself, am afraid to get married. For i dont know what might happen to my children.
Maybe if abstinence the option, then so be it...by God's will.
But, who knows, i might change my mind...after all, i am not in love with anyone, and there is no urgency to get married...and for any of the reasons that people get married for.

Backstabber...

Latest experience i had..ended a relationship..a non-healthy relationship and discover that my 5 years best friends are actually are backstabbers...wonder how i can live with that?
and sometimes, all happen for a reason, just this one, i could not see it yet.

Speed Racer

The best family movie this summer. I didn't watch it when it came out last time, because few friends of mine told me this movie was so-so. But turns out it was a touching movie somehow. What i can deduced from this movie was:
1) Family is everything. When we have the support from them, nothing else matter and they are the best thing anyone can possibly have ever.
2) It doesn't matter if we have the best car, the best equipment or the most money in the world, just as long as the passion is there and there is a will. It is all that matter.
3) That coupleship, 'boy-girl friend' things, is wonderful can be more wonderful when they are completing each other and helping each other out.
4) That the bad people will always lose in the end even it take years to bring them down.
5) That patient is the best key when in trouble
6) That talking with the dad, always help when we are in doubtful position( me one of it) and with mum, it will always be comforting in the end. Its the mother's ability to make sure all are good and smooth between dad and me.
7) That again, family is the best thing we can possibly had, and that when we have that kind of family, to get out from it is impossible....

This is one of the movie that i will recommend ..and for me to watch it again, just to be reminded of the feeling in it.

My Love movies...

My top love movies (not in order of sequence):

1) City of Angels
2) Becoming Jane
3) Serendipity
4) My Best Friend's Wedding

So far...